IT'S BEEN AWHILE This past year has been difficult. It was about this time a year ago that my mother went into decline. By the first part of March, 2015, we were speaking with her oncologist, and decided that the best place for her was in a hospice. She died from lung cancer last September. I have struggled a bit with depression since. During the darkest days, I would question the reason for living - I wasn't suicidal but I did question the point of it all. It seemed so futile. Why do anything if we end up dying in the end? I'm sorry if this is depressing, but this is where I was. I'm finally coming out of it, thank God.
Part of what I've also been going through has been to look at past hurts, why people do what they do, and why so many of us seem so insecure. Why do some people think the only way they can protect their 'turf' is to put down and be unsupportive of others? Any criticism coming my way is hard to deal with, especially if I don't think it's coming from a place that is honest, helpful, or genuine. It's also a hard thing to forgive. I don't operate that way, and I don't think others should either.
But here's the thing. No one can keep you down. People may try, because to them, your success or ability may mean their lack. It isn't really about that. We are meant to grow, to evolve, to get better at everything we do. I think this is so true, I consider it a universal law.
No one but you can keep you down. And if you give yourself permission to keep going, to keep working, to keep trying, you will succeed in spite of anyone who stands in your way. It's just the way it is. We are meant to evolve in whatever we attempt, so long as we keep going. And if we need to take a time-out, to slack off now and then to recharge ourselves, that's okay. That's part of the process, too.
What I'm saying is don't lose hope. Trust that you'll accomplish whatever it is you want to do. Have a little faith in yourself and in the universe. And above all, be kind to yourself and others.
- Susan.